I made a mistake...

Leaving you was the biggest mistake i have ever made in my life..
I thought... i would have been happy leaving you...

But even a day without you... didn't put a smile on my face...

I saw u today...

Doing the stuff that i tot i hated...

But i realised....

I love wad u do...

I really miss what u do...

I really miss the pinches u gave me...

I really miss the hugs you gave me...

And.. the kisses...

Luckily... I hang out with my friends today...

They helped put a smile on my face...

We did rly funny stuff...

But hanging out with them made me realise...

Its not freedom that it wanted...

I just needed some space...

Thats all i needed...

Spending time with them really helped me realise...

How much i really love you...

I used 2 think it was not a big feeling...

But i now know that i rly rly ryly LOVE you!

My friends~ SOUL CREW~

I will never forget my friends... they help me realise my big big mistake...

Sorry inclusing CHUN HOE and CHEN SHIN oso...

Dun hav ur pictures!

Sorry For All The Pain I've Brought 2 You...

Although.. u don't wanna hear it~
But it's just the only thing I can say 2 you...
I'm SORRY for...
Hurting you even when we were 2gether, i was 2 careless...
I'm SORRY for...
Letting you down... even when u trusted me..
I'm SORRY for...
Breaking your heart... even when i swore never 2 do...
I'm SORRY for...
Not giving u another chance...even when u begged for it..
I'm SORRY for...
Not appreciating you...even when u gave me everything.. even freedom
I'm SORRY for...
Not understanding you...even when u cried
I'm SORRY for...
Not helping you believe in your miracle... even when u wished that it existed..
I'm SORRY for...
Being selfish... I asked for more even when u gave me everything...
I'm SORRY for...
The Tears u had to shed because of my selfishness...
I'm SORRY for...
Taking your first kiss... in the worst way ever...
I'm SORRY for...
Not keeping my promises... even when i repeated them for countless times...

I also want to say THANK YOU
For the happy moments i had with you...
For the sad moments i had with you...
For the patience you showed 2 me...
For the freedom you gave..
For the compassion you showed...
For the understanding you gave...
For the hugs...
For the kisses...



U RLY DON'T DESERVE THIS... U DON'T DESERVE A LOSER LIKE ME.. ,...U DESERVE SO MUCH MORE~
U DESERVE 2 HAVE A PERSON THAT
IS MORE UNDERSTANDING THAN ME...
MORE TALLER THAN ME...
MORE HANDSOME THAN ME...
MORE BRIGHTER THAN ME
MORE CAREFUL THAN ME
MORE SENSITIVE THAN ME...
MORE CONFIDENT THAN ME...
MORE CARING THAN ME...
AND MORE LOVING THAN ME...


AND I'M SO SORRY IT HAD TO END THIS WAY...
I'M SO SO SORRY... But...
I STILL DO LOVE YOU... AND I ALWAYS HAVE...

Lazy Lazy Lazy!!!

I'm so freakin lazy la...
No mood 2 do watever...~
WtH~~
The uni mood i hav is playing..
N working out~~
WtH!!
I'm 2 lazy 2 even do my HW!!
N rite now i wrtting a freakin blog?
WTH!!!

Dun care i wanna be hardworking jor~~
Cannot be as lazy my... um... jk la..~
Aiyo...
One day i'll be a responsible father~
So i got to workhard now!!
I can do it...!

?Sensitive?

Sorry...
Cause~ i'm not rly a sensitive person...
It's my personality...~
If i gave u a rose~
U would probably keep it n treasure it always~
But~
If u gave me a rose~
I would probably eat it~

Thats probably y i really like it when u pinch or punch me~
Thats how i actually feel your feelings...~
Sorry...~~
I rly suck in relationships...
...
The thing is...
It's not that u don't giv me freedom...
All this time u have been giving me alot of freedom...
U let me be wif my friends during rehat N in KoKo~..
I should hav been thanking you for that...
And its not that u get jelous easily...
It's just my mind thinking too much...

So... please forgive me...~
Because i really really love you..
I'm just rly scared that we quarrel wif each other...
Probabably Thats y i always say soli gua.,.
Soli~~~!!

Strange dream~

How~ 11 days without updating~
Malas nya~
So anyway~our class visited Help college today~
5s2 n 3
The visit was boring~
The speech was boring~
The only thing that was'nt boring was~
Being next 2 you during the whole boring visit~
Sitting next 2 u is fun~
Ur hand was constantly cold~ LoL
Dun worry k~
I won't be sick~ eating ur sweet buduh~
I healthy punya~~^^

Anyway..
I went home n sleep~~
Then i had this rly rly weird dream...
The dream was the same~
Our class visit sum place~
Then i was next to her the whole time..
The weird part is because
Gloria n Michelle was the same person~
N in my dream~
Just starring at michria
Will make win ni mad~LoL
Kinda weird hor~
Then ~ in my dream oso..
Yasmir got mad at me because~
He ponteng the class trip n i forget to help him ~
Ambil kedatangan~
But in real life Steven was the 1 thats was supposed 2 be mad~
N in the dream~
I was walking wif win ni then she suddently~
She changed 2 william~
Then we started punching each other~
LoL~~
K anyways~
MSSD coming!!
Jia you!!!
Volleyball babey!!!

Tiring day~ thinking bout u giv me the strengh

WoW..... tiring day~
Pukul 8 got volleyball training...
Reach there that time they oredi start training..
Cch, jun wah n jia how oredi digging~
Then uni me not yet warm up..
Malas nya...
So i jog first loo...
Then straight away train my digging~
Train train...
Wa... wei loon spike damn geng~
Cch~ so semangat leh...
Tat guy rly full of confidence leh~
Buat apa oso banyak confidense~
Kau lui oso got confidense~
LoL~ I wish i macam dia~
so sunny~
But uni 2 more weeks then mssd lo...
At least we improved~

After we finish our volley training...
Me ,cch n leong got softball training~
Jun wah malas~
train train... i the hot sun~
Then i balik..
Puki.. letih like babi...
Went home eat n bath~
Then pegi tuition~
Pegi tuition... so sleepy...
wad to do?~
Reach tuition...
Gloria.~no semangat~
N the reason is so obvious~
Haizz... so sien la~
My friends are emoing n
I can do nth to fffing help~
All because 1 guy if so Leng zai!!!
Sien la!!!...
Then after tuition..
I went to piramid to celebrate Zp's birthday~
In karaoke~
Went there n sing 2 songs...
Then habis masa jor...
Watever la~
At least i did'nt miss zp's bday~ party
The pegi piramid hang kai~
Take picture..
Then balik~
Mandi~ then go dancing class~
Dance untill wa.. rly letih o...
Tomorow~ still got dancing class..
Very song a!!!!!!
At least very heathly la~
6 PAX!!
LoL...

Haizz.. did'nt see u today la...
So sien...
dun wanna call n fan u...
K luv you~
Monday i got surprise for u!!
Watch out!

I love you alot more than last time!
Muacks!!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life
.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.