All this time, i've been positive, and i always like 2 spread my positive aura 2 people all around me.
But when im sad, i always keep it 2 myself.
I have been sad, lonely, and despressed this whole month.
And just when i thought, that i found some1, that i would at least.
Make me happier.. someone, that actually made me feel, wanted. and cared about at least.
You just had to go and, Tear out my heart.. just like that. and it made me feel so...
So... uselesss... and truely worthless. I've never felt like this for a very very long time.
I've always felt, happy, and positive. RITE NOw.. because of you... i feel So... USED.
wHY..... I really really hurts.. Really.

Wadafak

Its feels like no matter how hard i try..
Winners lose, losers win..

But im gonna keep believing...
no matter..

I think, my problem is that... i expect too much from too little?
I keep expecting a reward for every little small shit i do.

So from now on... im not gonna expect much.
But.. thats just rly demotivating.. :(

But im gonna keep doing it...
No matter.

I feel like... deep down, truly no1. at all.. understands me...
I feel very. unwanted.

Issit because, im a terrible person?
Or its because im the type of person, no1 will ever truly give a shit about.

I keep telling myself, keep working hard..
ONEDay... people will look up 2 you, and GIVE A SHIT.

But really... Its slowly killing me inside..
I keep this, real gap, of sadness and emptiness in me...

I guess it really is Karma..
I deserve what i get.. But for how long i really wonder.

BUT... im going too keep working hard.
NO MATTER.

I don't know how long I can keep waiting like this..
But im slowly giving up...

I don't know If i should keep waiting for you.
Because ur worth it...

But even if u break up oneday..
I don't know if i would ever have a chance wit u back again...

My confidence is slowly dying out..
I don't know why... Its just day by day...

I lose myself.. all the time.
I really sick of this.... crappy shitty feeling i get..

But... unless u tel me straight oneday.. that..
I trully have no chance with u.. And that I am truly wasting my time..

Then i will try and move on...
BUT...

Non the less.. i won't give up...
No matter.