So... 2012's here~ :)

Well... 2011.... has been, an awesome year... i have 2 say~
I have done, my best, worked really hard~
Achieved somethings, learned alot, gained alot of experience~
Exactly, what i intended 2 do, and i did it :)
I am in a way proud of myself :")

But... besides that, i've also done mistakes...
This year... i've hurt people, emotionally in a bad way...
And... things happen... and, everytime, i blame myself..
Whether.. its about, lust, or being not good enough, and also... commitment..
Things that affect, a relationship.

Im always, moving ahead... following this road in my mind...
And... sometimes... i get distracted.. and i lose my way...
And thats when... my mistakes come... and take over..
But, i always tell myself, to keep moving forward even when i fall
But... when my mistakes affect people in a bad way..
Thats when my road, takes a painful toll.. of regret..

I am truthfully sorry... about the bad things i did... and how much i've hurt... some of you...
I never wanted, things like that 2 happen...
But... im only human... and sometimes... mistakes happen...
And, all i can do is say i'm sorry..
And i really do mean it.

Well... 2012 is here...
I plan on working harder........ and harder!
So much to do :)

What the fuck

When, it comes 2 love, relationships, and stuff~
Man.... I don't ever know what the fuck i want...

Like seriously! What keeps bugging me!?
Im so full of shit sumtimes.....
Im like a Fucking... never satisfied Prick...

A wish

If i had a wish...
I'd wish...
that- i'll do my best in my dance, and studies...
- and that i'll make my dad proud
- And i'll love that one girl... with all my heart

hmmmmmmm

Gotta work harder! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh!

...

Im a better friend, than a boyfriend...

Im sorry..

Well... I didn't ask for this...
I don't know why u like me so much...
But, honestly... im truth fully truthfully sorry...
Theres nothing wrong with you..
Im just, not ready for anything now...

I didn't plan for this 2 happen..
I didn't expect you to fall for me like this..
Maybe, i will regret doing this..
But, honestly, im just follwing my heart..
Im sorry, but this is happening 2 fast...
Im not ready for anything...
But truthfully... im so very sorry...
The 2nd girl i've hurt in my life...

Shineeeeeee again

I want 2 showcase myself 2 the world...

Working for a better future~~

So i haven't been updating my blog for like really long now~~
Maybe its because~ Shit happens~
Anyways~ when IT happened~
I guess, It took my self-esteem away from me~

Alot of shit happened at the same time~ Im not gonna lie~
Its pretty much a small issue~
But i guess i take shit 2 seriously sumtimes~
My low self-esteem, took control of my life for months~
Till a few days ago, when, i was about 2 quit college~
My friend told me~ (more like my brother)
Its not that i suck at what i do, Its because i don't have the confidence 2 do what i do~
He says that, its like martial arts~ If u want 2 break sumthing, U have 2 ~
AIM BEYOND THAT SUMTHING~ 2 actually break it...
Well~ those words rly woke me up~
2 actually be more confident in what i do~

I can't let a small rejection~ let me down~ I need 2 stand back up...
And rite now, thats what i plan on doing :)

Picture adds 2 my self confidence ! :)

Fucking, Bullshit

Im SO FUCKING Frustrated~!
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!

=.=

Train lei train hei~
Oso, still the same ... zzz
DU 9 LAN...

D:

Only games make me happy nowadays~

D: confused~ :(

Y can't I get over just one girl...
Its just some girl~~
Issit, cuz she's special 2 me?
Or issit cuz im just desperate~?
Aw man... I just Can't move on, N I don't know why..
God fuggin dammit

:S

Man.. Im so self centered..
Gotta care more bout others now ><
Man, shitt blog...

Bad moment...

I don't know~~ why, THIS is happening 2 me~
Shit, keeps on happening 2 me...
I really don't get it~
Its like~~
Things keep getting worse n worse..

Last month~ i Got dizzed by a girl~

This month~ My college friends hate me~

Im already doing the best I can...
I don't know what more i can do...

E~~~ M~~~ O

Hahaa~~~~~
I need 2 stop being~
A desperate pathetic loser... D:<

:/

I wonder if u ever missed me...

Uhghghghghgh

Geez... i gotta stop being so desperate, n pathetic..~

Wanna hibernate away from fb...

the more see fb, the more emo i get,, need gamessssssss

~~~~~~~

I don't understand why, ppl look at me,

and they all assume, that girls like me, or i already have a girlfriend..
If these things are true, i'd be a much happier person~
sadly,~

Im not happy

Da truth~~

Theres always a hidden truth~

A truth hidden so deep,

Kept away from me, 2 prevent me from gettin hurt~

But, theres no point~ hiding it~

cUz, Its pretty obvious anyways~

But, watevar~~ Life goes on~

:)

If theres sumthing u wanna tell me...

Just be straight forward~

Don't worry about hurting me~

Or watever~

Just tell me the truth, no lies~

Im a man~~

If i get hurt~ It'll just be temporary..

Its not like, i haven;t face stuff like this before~

If u think this is the best way~~

Then by all means~ Go ahead~ :)

Don't worry bout me~

I'll always stand back up no matter what~ :)

I won't hate u~

Im matured~ Im understanding~

Watever it is u want~

Just, remember~ At the end~ It'll always be FINE :)

PEACE B|

:(

Confused...
I don't wanna do sumthing i'd regret...

Im such a loser :(

My 200th post~! wuuuuu

Sho, Im a vain person~ :P

I love working out~~ :D

Omg...

Hear me When i say this...

I have fallen, Real deeeeeeeply IN LOVE WITH YOU...

I mean it :D

SHIT

This is not happening! FUCK

Every time i fall for sum1~

Shit happens!

Diu Niama

All the time!

Its like, Haiz..

Either i think 2 much~

Or it really is like that..

I don't know~

Everytime i really fall for sum1,

I never feel secure :(

When that happens,

I usually tend 2 fuck things up...

owh, i gt 2 cheer up, n hope things will be fine...

hieh hieh hieh B|

Im your retard :D

Well~~~~~~~

Now, that I've looked back,~

I've always tot that, there was sumthing goin on between us~

I've always wondered weather u have ever felt the same way~ :S

I've always wondered if u've ever suspected sumthing~

But~~ Now that I've played pretend so long~

I guess there's no point 2 it~

Guess i'll never find out~~

I've come so far~~

Turning back, is not an option~

I've MOVED ON~

Gotta be AWESOME!

So nowadays~

I've been supa busy in my college work~

But, My busy days are gonna be ovaaar soon~

Hmm~~

Not rly happy bout my progress in college~

I've been focusing 2much on dancing..

Haven't been focusing enough on my college...

I've always wanted 2 work harder for college..

But, honestly speaking~

I couldn't find the motivation 2 do so :S

But~ things are about 2 change~!

I've found my motivation~

I aim for a scholarship...

N the only way for that is 2 get good results~

I am so motivated 2 work harder in college~

Things are gonna change for the better...

So main thing now~

Is da fact that i have alot of free time~~!

Hurrah~~~

Will u go out wif me?

:) :D XD :* B|

:(

Sumtimes~

When i make jokes,

I always, make fun of people...

But, sumtimes~

I go overboard..

N, Thats when, i start 2 realise how much of an asshole i really am...

But, by the time i realise it,

Sorry, may be 2 late~

N sorry, really doesn't cut it sumtimes.. :(

Y do i have 2 be such an asshole :(

Gotta make change...

Really sorry whoever i've hurt :(

Im not gonna repeat it twice~

Hey angel, U da sexaaaaay

Omg im addicted 2 my title,

iTS effing addictive~~!

Sho anywayyyyysss~~~~~~~

Can't wait for my sem break~~

Have free time~~~

Got, alot of performancesssssss~

Need 2 work harddddddddd!

Gud nite world :)

Balls~ balls~ Balls :)

When ur in love~

Its best 2 take it Sloooooow~ :)

No need 2 rush things~ :D

Moving forward~

Am, i really moving in the right track?

Should i turn back?

Is it 2 late?

Chaaaaaap GORRR meeeeeeeeeeei

Sho anywayss~

Im gonna keep this simple~

Chinese valentines day~~

Went 2 I-CITY

2 Perform~ N promote street nation~

I-city LOOks effing awesomeeeeeee at nite!

2 top that, Its the full moon~

AWESOME!

First time in my life~

Girls ask for my Hp number~

Of cuz, in a way I happy la~

But 2 bad~~

No interest~ ^^

Sho anywayss~~

Just wanna shay~~

IM ADDICTED 2 U :P

Nitesssssss

B|

Ahh~ nth 2 shay~

Gonna keep it in my heart this time~ :P

But, in short~

I've never felt like this~

In a rly long time~

N it feels really good~ :D

Sho anywayssssss

Hahaaaaaaaaaaa~ Back from aussie

Damn malas 2 update la~

Hahaa, the pass 2 days has been super stressful~

Cuz, of the blardy assigments~

But, at least i pulled it of~

Ballss, man, i haven't dance for almost 2 weeks shit!

Must dance 2moro MUST!

So, 2day is a good day :D

alot of good things happened 2 me 2day~

1- manage 2 finish my assignments

2- had a great time with friends at 3 open houses

3- ada ang pauu

4- maxis, requested for school brothers 2 perform~!

5- each performance, 450 ringiit! Yesh!

6- all the performance, will be during my 2 months sem break!!

7- n got like 5-6 showss!

I love my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ :D

8- SECRET~ B|

Random picccccccc~ of my beloved RObin :D

Welll~~~~~

Im goin 2 australia 2daaaaaaaaaaaaay~~~

Gonnaaa spend chinese new year there~~

Hahaha

with my bro~~

Be4, we leave him there~~~

So anyways~

Hmm~~~ no idea wad 2 write~

LoL,

sO YAH,

A few things struck my head~

1st time- we should'nt be sad, when ur friends insult u directly~ Becuz, its better than him saying it behind ur back~ :D

2nd thing- hmm, tak tau la, Just scared that my dance skills will drop alot, Cuz i wont be training for a week :(

3rd- Hope i can eat alot alot alot~

Then work out alottt~~

I rly hope i can dance at Ausss~~

Sho anywayss~~

Im seriously gonna miss all my friends la~ :S

When, i come back~

Ill giv every1 OF u~

I BIG BIG ASSSSSS HUGGGGGGGG!

I needddd 2 grow BALLS!

Can, we be friends?

WITH BENEFIT?

Wonder wad, u'd say~ :S

Well...

2day is The day that proves~

That i hav been single for a year now~~

Can't say i've enjoyed it~

But, WHat happened~

Has happened~

N i believe its for the better good~

Wokayss~

So life has been ok these days~

And thE first month of the new year's gonna end~

tHIS month was'nt all that great~

But it could be worse :D

So, i wont complain~~

Hahaha, i don't get y ppl are starting 2 hate this year~

But, not me, Im staying optimistic...

I HAVE A GOOD FEELINGG BOUT THIS YEAR~

N i believe, Everything's gonna be AWESOME!

I will keep on believing :D

Dance dance dance, Draw draw draw :D

Enjoy, the emo song from NARUTO~ :D

;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yeaaaaaaaaaaash~

This semester of college~

Ish the best among all~

Its the most relaxing hahaa~

I have more time with my friends~

More time dancing~

Everything~ :DDD

Anyways~

Im gonna dance most of the time now~~

This sunday im performing~ yeash!

Then~

I'll be like a full time dancer~~

Arghhh push!

I've been watching alot of naruto lately~

Its awesome!

I gives me alot of spirit 2 dance~ honestly

No anyways~

Enjoy da naruto song~ :D

Im so outdated...

:D

dONE , 1/3 of my assignments~ :D

iTS OKAYZ~

iM still doin good progress :D

bETTER THAN last sem..

Hahaa

tHISS ish a new year!

New me!

Better time management!

:D

So, anyways~ Teaching kids hip hop 2moro~ :D

Yeash! i FEEL Awesome!

B|

The sem break just ended :D

A fairly satisfying holiday...

Ahhhhhh....~~~

The rest i had I have 2 say~~ Is worth it :D

This holiday has made me realised alot of things~

And learned alot of lessons~

So anyways~

During the holidays, I've spent alot of time with my friends~

Goin out partying, yamchaing, count downing, chritmasing, Watevering~

Wasted alot of money...

However...

Its worth it...

I've learned that,

SEriously... friendship, is the reason, im here 2day...

Without my friends... I seriously don't know how i could go on alone...

aH... I love my friends :D And i miss all of them

Other than that,

I've been playing badminton alot with my friends~

And i learnt a lesson...

Basically, when u want 2 scoop a ball from fallin~

U have 2 move rly rly fast...

And when u do, U CANNOT, HAVE EVEN A SECOND OF DOUBT... That u can't scoop the ball...

Cuz, when u do, Ur NOT GONNA MAKE IT~

Its kinda lame, but i find it inspiring,~

Its like, gonna be my mind set from now on...

Im gonna move 2wards my goal, without any doubt...

Yeaasssssssh! COLLEGEEEEE 2MORO!

Im so excited!!!!!!!

The pictures are moments, That, i love so so much :D

Za new year

Its da new year,

Which means,

From now on, Im not gonna post anything emo in this blog~

Its gonna be emo free :D

hopefully!

hOhOhOhOhO

Hmm~~

This year, Is the year, i learn self confidenCe..

Cuz, i know thats what im lacking... :D

Hahahahaa

oKAAAAAYS, time 2 work out!

:p

Another sleepless nite~

I wonder whats in my mind~ :S

2011

ThIs year.........

Will be the year.......

Its gonna be the year, I hit it BIG!!

Urrrrrhhhhhh

Im damnnnnn motivated 2 work hard this year....

Seriously..... urrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhh!